I’m not sure if it’s the rush of hormones, the change a baby produces, or the fear others may instill, but baby blues are real. I’m not talking depression, which is more severe, but just the blues ya know? Feeling down, not necessarily hopeless..
Well, here’s my experience…
When Did It Start?
Now that I feel I’m on the tail end of the baby blues (2 weeks plus , postpartum) I feel I can comfortably talk about it..
it all seemed to have started as soon as I gave birth, when I was still in the hospital. I was getting so sad thinking about my son at home, 13 months old. I missed him so much . Forget the bonding with my newborn and husband, I just wanted my son, my first born.. I felt some kind of odd loyalty to him over my newborn daughter (I know weird right? Any other mamas feel that?)
But, once I got home and my son came home, the sadness didn’t go away.
What MY Baby Blues Looked Like..
Now, I know this experience may be different for everyone.. so this is what it looked like for me…
For me, it was crying at random moments. Sometimes uncontrollable. This only occurred in the mornings, however.. I had little desire to do anything but pushed past it , with the strength of God (will talk a little more about later) and got things done. It also occurred when talking to people about motherhood- either on the phone or in person. Oh and especially when anyone wanted to take my son away to babysit to give me a break.
Some of My Triggers…
although the sadness felt to just come on at random times, after thinking and reflecting, there are things that triggered these random moments of sadness.
1. Mornings- like I stated earlier.. idk if hormones are heightened in the am, but it always seemed to flare up around this time
2. Unrealistic expectations- expecting myself to be supermom, not wanting to burden people with my problems, and wanting to do it all on my own— no bueno
3. Unrealistic/destructive thoughts- such as: “your son is going to hate you cause you’re giving someone else attention”. . No where based in reality ,
Now I’m not saying there is a one size fits all cure…and not saying anything here won’t be days of sadness that come up..
Clinging to Christ as been my sanctuary, my place of peace, and how I’ve been able to get out of the “funk”.
One verse I’ve been meditating on real heavy is Psalm 34:4-
“I sought the Lord and He answered me and delivered me from me from all my fears”
God has been so faithful when I seek him… prayer is our main way of communicating with Him and we hear His answer and response through His word, the Bible.
Well thanks for reading… this one is kind of short.. but I wanted to share for others that may experience postpartum depression and or baby blues.
THERE IS HOPE!
Psalm 34:18 says-
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Here are some scriptures to meditate on and dwell on to help– hide these in your heart, believe it! It’ll benefit you so much… y’all to the Lord, give it to Him.
– “It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” – Deut. 31:8
-“…fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” –Is. 41:10
-“The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.” –Deut. 33:27a
-“But you, LORD, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high.” –Ps. 3:3
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